My baby was born two days ago at 28 weeks and 5 days. I got to the hospital early and I was about to get a ton of shots and medical interventions to help her after birth.

She in now in the NICU and is doing well but will probably be there for the next 6 or more weeks.

I’m so afraid of the future with my baby.:The developmental delays, possible autism and/or learning disabilities. I am still in the hospital and I haven’t stopped crying yet. I don’t know how to deal with going home without her. Feeling like a failure as a first time mom.

I’m not even sure how to explain what I’m feeling or who to turn to or how to see the “positive” side of all of this.