3rd miscarriage

February 28th at 5:45pm I was told at my 12wk scan my baby no longer had a heartbeat. I've been crying on and off since then. It's like a wave of panic hits me and I can't breath, and when I finally do its just crying that comes out. I have a 7 year old and really try to keep it together around her. She knows though. I'm not myself at this point. My body hurts, my heart hurts. I haven't even started bleeding and I still have pregnancy symptoms. How evil is that? To know your baby is dead but your body still hasn't got the memo. I pick up my meds today to help kick-start the miscarriage process. I was supposed to pick them up Tuesday but I just couldn't accept what was happening. Hubby mentioned getting me some therapy, which I totally agree with. This 3rd miscarriage is hitting me harder. Hope everyone is dealing better than me.