Hey so I have a huge mental issue with becoming pregnant again and wanted to talk to some moms who might feel the same. I had a set of twins twelve years ago. I was 18. My family did not approve and found a way to remind me each day. When I finally gave birth I was so excited my daughter was perfect and my son was born with PRS. He had a very difficult two year battle with his health tubes everywhere surgeries procedures and commas. It felt like it would never end and he would never come home. The fact that I had a healthy child at home who is the same as the child that i did not think would ever come home killed me. Lack of support was my grave. But now he is a healthy 12 year old on the honor roll. But has issues interacting with people our relationship suffers because his ordeal is a major part of my depression I went through. I'm now in a better place in life and my other half wants another child and the thought makes my skin crawl im trying to work through this with even more therapy but I wanted to hear other people's experiences and how they handle a pregnancy after having a child with birth defects