Today I had to make the worst decision no pet momma wants to make . I had to put my son down due to pancreatitis . My heart hurts and so broken . All I want to do is lay around and cry but I’m also 6 weeks pregnant snd have this life I’m carrying to think about . Just sucks I don’t feel like I’ll get to actually grieve because I have to move on and make sure this at is okay. I’m so numb and lost without my baby. I wanted him to meet his brother or sister and now I won’t get that experience with him .