Need help please

I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that I’m an alcoholic. I think part of it has been hard to identify because I can go weeks or months between drinks and sometimes I just have one drink with dinner and I’m good. But I always eventually end up binge drinking where I get completely hammered and try to hide it from everyone. Yesterday I messed up big time. I left work and went on a bender and had to call and tell my husband I couldn’t pick up our daughter from daycare. He’s livid with me and I don’t blame him. I don’t know what the fallout from all this will be but hope I can salvage my marriage. I now realize I can never drink again and I’m ok with that. I have a therapist and plan on telling them what happened so I can begin working on this. Does anyone have kind words or hope or advice to offer?