Hi... I honestly don't know what I need. I guess I'm just needed to know I'm not alone. I am due in September with my second boy. I'm so happy and feel so blessed to be having another baby. His older brother will be 16 months when he is born. My first pregnancy, aside from trying to figure out my normal, was relatively easy and my post partum almost non existent. I felt an instant connection throughout my whole pregnancy with our first. My second is a lot tougher already. I'm still not showing and my appointments are more spread out. I'm feeling like I'm getting serious depression and anxiety already and don't know what to do. I am just barely in my second trimester and could barely make out the heart beat at our apt on Tuesday. I'm scared with how bad my emotions have been this go around that I won't be able to connect with the baby as well or that my post partum will be scary. I've heard all the horror stories and everyone has something to say but I don't truly feel like I'm being heard. My husband tries but he's never had mental health issues and has a fixer mentality. So I don't feel like he can totally understand what I'm dealing with. I don't feel like this is going to be an easy fix.

I don't know I guess I'm just looking for advice from women who have actually been here that know what it's like. I am just hoping I'm not alone.