So my husband and I have always had a wonderful marriage. We have had out ups and downs. Our sex life has always been good. We get a little crazy at times. So im not a prude at all. My husband had always been BIG against social media. He always says he is afraid I will find someone better. Anyway we just had a baby a year ago. And our sex life just hasnt been as good. I hear that happens but I had a csection and this is his 6 kid total. Ive been spicing it up. Mixing things up. But then one day I left my phone at home and he asked me to look up something while he ran inside a store. And I seen goth porn. Like real people in your area stuff. I have tats and piercings but he doesnt. And I don't dress goth. But the night before he met his friends new goth gf. So instantly I felt sick. Like was he getting off to her? I talked to him about it because we always have been able to communicate openly. He shut ut down. And occasionally I will check just because I am curious and I seen where he was looking up "banging my coworker at work" and it was in a kitchen. He is a chef. They just hired all these new servers that are young and pretty. And again my insecurity kicked in. I hadnt lost the baby weight at all and was feeling disgusting. So I busted my butt and I lost 60lbs. I have been giving him massages. I clean the house. Wait on him hand and foot. We have watched porn together. But lately he just wants me to use my toy while he gets himself off. I noticed he is on porn 5-6x a day. Then when I questioned him about it. Since it makes me feel like he doesnt want me. He got mad. So now he has Instagram. Like I said he has always chewed me out over having one even if its just my family. I used his to look up an actor we both follow. And what did I see nothing but big booty, big boobie, thonged women who twerk and shake it. He was liking their pics and looking up their only fans. One was our nephews new gf. I have told him over and over how it makes me feel unwanted. And he thinks im just insecure and crazy. But I told him it is disrespectful. He doesnt comment on my posts. But now he has thong topless women commenting on pictures of our cute kids. And our older kids have Instagram. They see it. But no matter how disgusting and unwanted it makes me feel he act like he wont give it up. Im always having to initiate sex when before it was mind blowing and exciting. I dress up for him and did pictures all he said was "nice". I just feel like I am losing my husband. We use to be so close and i have no clue what happened. He said now im depressed and i need to stop. I put on lingerie the other night he told me I needed to "cut that sh*t out". He rejected me. But i know he is in our bathroom several times a day looking at the instagram and only fans. Idk how to fix it. He just went with me to get my nipples pierced and told me how sexy I am. And he loves them. But he is still looking at these girls. If he doesnt like something I quit. He gets jealous if another guy talks to me. I dont know what to do anymore. I want to save our marriage. He says its not in trouble. Dont look at his phone and I wont know. But his exwife had men on her phone and they divorced. And he still gets mad about it. Wanting to make sure Im not meeting anyone. Im clueless