So excited and scary, I can’t get excited ☹️

Today I’m 14DPO and 16DPT, also CD28 according to app period should start today, I’ve been testing since 5dpo to test trigger out but line start to get darker on 10DPO so today I got my BFP, im excited but so scared to get excited that I feel bad for not getting too excited I’ve been ttc journey since march 2018, got pregnant September 2018, due to Down syndrome baby stop growing and had some complications and at 14 weeks I needed to get a D&C on December 2018, since February 2019 we started ttc without succes on January 2021 we got pregnant and had chemical pregnancy since then we still were ttc without succes, I have pcos so my hormones got out of control and dr put me on birth control pills for 6 month and meanwhile he recommend us to do a treatment wich is called linfoterapia or inmunoterapia con linfocitos in Spanish where they inject me my husbands linfocitos and that’s supposed to help my body accept my husbands genes so on January we stopped BC and we started trying again I did my first cycle of letrozole 5mg and trigger shot everything went soooo perfect I really thought I was going to conceive on first try but didn’t happen so that’s why dr told me to do HSG again and try this month since I got pregnant on September after I did my HSG test I conceived that same month, so this month i did hsg again and I didnt do letrozole just trigger on day 12 and on day 11 it was a perfect follicle to trigger on my right ovary, 🙏🏻really praying for this rainbow baby to stick and have a good pregnancy🌈 just feeling bad for not getting too excited ☹️ I think I’m scared praying for all those women out there ttc and all those baby sticking on mommy’s belly❤️ baby dust to everyone out there