How would you feel

Whenever my husband and I get into a argument he tends to say that I should go back and live with my mom ( we’ve been married 3 years now), that I always stick up for my daughter , mom or sister and never him but I’m not one to raise my voice in a fight, that he is stupid for marrying me with all the shit I did in the past ( he went threw my phone when we first started dating I didn’t give him the password) he just throws everything back in my face. Then once I cry and he goes off he says he just doesn’t want me to go anywhere or leave him after I adopt his son.

I feel like any self worth I felt is gone and all I am is a shell, I take care of our kids , I pick up the house every day and I give him sex whenever he wants and I don’t talk to anyone( I don’t have friends ) other than the children don’t leave the house, I love my family more than anything.