Mother’s day

I didn’t know where else to talk about this. But Mother’s Day absolutely sucks at the moment. I love celebrating with my mum and I try to spoil her but this year I should have a 3 year old and a 1 year old and I don’t 😫 is it weird to buy myself something as a mum from my babies? The baby dads aren’t in the picture so they wouldn’t ever get me anything as a mum even though I did stuff for them as a dad (presents from babies at Father’s Day) the second baby daddy acknowledges the fact I got to roughly 6-8 weeks pregnant but doesn’t call himself a dad (fair enough, I get it) but I want to be able to say I’m a mum! How do you respond as a mother to angel babies when people ask if you have kids yet? Because I want to be proud and say yes but I don’t want them to ask more questions and me have to say that they were never born 😞