Advice towards healing..

Me and my bf just broke up today. Last night I overheard him calling me petty and annoying to his (on the phone) friends. When I came in the room to confront him he immediately gave me cold eyes and starting snapping.

We just moved in together last month, last night I had to beg him for answers on “do you love me (said kinda) but still wants me to live with him and stay here. He didn’t give me well enough answers to I asked again today. Took me about 3 hours to finally get the “so do you want to break up” (he shook his head yes), we both cried, both said I love yous, sorrys and hugged for a long time. He said he wasn’t ready to setting down and fell out of love with me about 2 weeks ago.

He still wants to be best friends and live together, we’ve been together for 3 years. He’s 21 and I’m 19, we’ve been homeless together, been through so many dark days so I don’t understand how someone that loves you can loose feelings so easily.

He isn’t dating anyone new or talking to anyone rn. I just believe he felt that he is too young to settle, he maybe still wants to explore and find his true self. I might just be holding him back.

He said he doesn’t see himself marrying me in the future or having kids, that he kinda loved me but the relationship isn’t going to work.

My mind is all over the place rn. I have NO family or friends where I live. My family is was evil and toxic so I lost all times with them. The house my and my ex have is my only shelter so that is the ONLY reason I’m going to stay but we’ll just have to sleep and basically separate.