Lately I been feeling very moody lately well not lately it’s been going on for half my pregnancy. At times I wanna just want everybody to go away but then again I already feel so alone. Sometimes I feel like I push my boyfriend away with my moods sometimes I can be so angry and mean to him he doesn’t want to speak to me or sometimes I can just cry or be sad and he asks me what’s wrong and I can’t really explain to him because I don’t know myself, I’ve talked to him about how he shouldn’t listen to the mean thing I say to him because I mean to say them or like I just been very emotional like trying to tell him that I don’t do the stuff on purpose he tells me he understands that he gets it but I don’t want to keep doing it for my sack, no matter if he doesn’t think it messing with our relationship I do. We’re young, soon to be first time parents and that really scares me because I feel like maybe he’ll get sick of me or maybe this would continue to happen. I also do deal with depression, anxiety, ptsd and bipolar 1 I was diagnosed at 13 I’m now almost 19 I was doing well before pregnancy with myself but now I’m not I spoke with my doctor about it she told me I should try in relax more take walks because I don’t do well with taking medication and therapy has never really worked for me.