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Around this time last month I had an abortion. It was my very first pregnancy ever and now I regret my decision at first I thought it was for the best but now I wished I tried harder. 2022 started off rough for me I had to go on administrative leave at work and when I finally got my return to work date I found out I was pregnant. My due date would’ve been October 13, 2022. The next few days I got so sick I couldn’t keep anything down. I was prescribed everything including Zofran and Bonjesta. My sugar was low, my vitals dropped, my blood pressure was high, and they said I had a uti that spread to my kidneys and caused a kidney infection that could potentially cause my kidneys to fail. I couldn’t walk on my own because I was in so much pain. I went that whole month without eating or sleeping and getting feed through iv’s because I thew up 24 hours including water. The child’s father made matters worse. He disrespected and degraded me so much that I’m mentally broken. He did so much and with me being pregnant and emotional it broken me further. Come to find out the reason my pregnancy was so hard is because he gave me 3 stds, so I made the decision for an abortion because I was losing everything. I couldn’t work, I was missing class, and I was prepared to be a mom let alone a single mother.

P.S. I got off birth control December 6th because I told him I didn’t want to have sex anymore. I ended up doing it after that because he got himself in a situation and got arrested based off emotion.

* I’ve attached some screenshots but that’s the nicest thing that was said throughout the whole pregnancy. He degraded me so bad it hurts.