I just need to vent. I’m going through it right now with family stuff but can’t really talk about it with them. Quick run down: my dad passed away 4 years ago and my mom and sister had made a plan to switch houses down the line, which I’ve been fine with (love the house but would never want a two story with pool). Well I thought they’d switch when my mom got too old to get up the stairs kinda thing. Nope. Last month my mom tells me she’s moving the first week in April. Total shocker.

Along with that, my mom and aunt were going to throw me a baby shower. They said it could be “April showers being may flowers”. Well needless to say my mom has been totally consumed with the move she hasn’t mentioned it once. Her house was the party house and I thought I’d have it there but now that she’s moving I don’t want it at my sisters (we’ve grown way apart since my dads passing). And I found out my aunt is going on a trip in April. So I just figured my baby shower isn’t happening. It is my second…

I took it upon myself to assume that’s the way things are and I think I will just do a sip and see myself once she’s here.

I just can’t help but get emotional about it. I totally feel like I’ve been forgotten (kinda story of my life between my mom sister and I). And I thought I had more time, more birthdays, etc at my parents house and now that is going away too. It’s been a lot. Just needed to get that out.