This is the first baby I lost. I don’t know how to feel because I didn’t even know I was pregnant. I thought I was pregnant just had to test but here I lay in the hospital bed because I thought I was dying. Turns out it was my baby the one I couldn’t protect, the one my body couldn’t protect. I would give everything up just to have them back. I hate this feeling so much. I wish no one would ever go through this.