Going crazy

I am 9 dpo this morning. I tested at 8 and 9 with a first response because I have convinced myself I’m pregnant. They were both negative, which I know it’s early but I was just hopeful after 2 miscarriages. I have been having crazy dreams almost every night this week, my one breast that always hurts when I’m pregnant does, I’ve been having troubles falling asleep then I’m wide awake at 5 am. Just a lot of symptoms but then I start to think it’s because I’ve convinced myself.. with my test completely negative has anyone else gotten a positive? My cycle has been longer since my last miscarriage so I’m supposed to start Friday I believe. I’m so glad to have this platform ❤️