miscarriage… apologies for the long post

i’m 16 and have been in the same relationship for three years this september, recently i found out i was pregnant on March 14th. i was ecstatic and scared at the same time. the father, my boyfriend, was also feeling the same way. we had gone back and forth about what we would do and eventually landed on keeping it and making things work out! we had told everyone and they all were happy and supportive. then come the 18th i was at work when i had experienced some brown discharge, my mom had told me to not worry and that it’s just old blood. afterwords i had started bleeding a bit and clotting… we were devastated and heartbroken. on my ob appointment we found out i was measuring a week behind and had to have blood tests to see if my hcG numbers had either doubled or stayed the same, unfortunately they stayed the same. i was miscarrying… i cried so much and then i realized crying isn’t going to bring my baby back, so i started joking about it bc that’s what helps me get thru any type of grief and to cope with things better. i still cry every now and then and can’t touch my stomach the same anymore. i had gotten a d&c on the 24th to get everything out. i want to try again and i know i’m gonna get some backlash for “being too young” and that “it’s going to be hard”. i know it’ll be hard but i have a great support system and could make it work! but i’m afraid i’m gonna miscarry again in the future as my family has a history of miscarriages and reproductive problems. i’m really conflicted on what to do or what to even think. everything has gotten so bad that i’ve missed a week of school and me and my sister have become the subject of bullying and now im scared to go back to school publicly and am trying to switch to online to get away from it. i went out in public for the first time today since, 27th of March, and my anxiety was at an all time high. i just… i dunno :(