Is anyone else going though this or has anyone been through this.

I'm so so ready for another baby but my husband absolutely doesn't want another. Long story short, My 1st pregnancy was very difficult, I was told I couldn't have kids to getting pregnant with twins, one of my babies passed away at 24 weeks and I ended up giving birth at 28 weeks to both of my babies. I was very anemic and our daughter was in the NICU for 100 days. She had heart surgery (not open heart) and had a gtube placed (she still has), she just turned 3 years old in November & is otherwise great other then trouble gaining weight. She loves other kids and always says she wants a brother lol. I want just one more for her to have someone to from up with. My husband and I both come from large families & I thought he'd want her to at least have a sibling. I get where he is coming from, we both went through so much with our first pregnancy but while I was pregnant & even shortly after he was saying he wanted more kids & I was the one saying I didn't & now it's the complete opposite. I try not to force it on him at all but I feel like I'm bugging him with it I have horrible baby fever at the moment & it definitely shows.