It’s been 4 years since having my daughter.

At that time I was in the darkest days of my life.. I was embarrassed and ashamed and never told anyone how I was feeling. I cried so much while my husband just hugged me tight for weeks on end. I had a out of body experience while giving birth.. it was a very strange and somewhat peaceful feeling! I was looking at my body from above about to give birth.. I only told my husband about this when I came to a couple days after birth. I realised I was very traumatised and started to go down a dark hole. I came to this group for support every single day reading how everyone felt and I wasn’t alone! The depression thankfully passed after months but those long nights of baby not sleeping and rocking to her sleep I turned to this group and instantly made me feel ‘normal’ not alone and I am doing a good job! I said I would never have another child again. The thought of feeling that darkness over me again terrified me. I have done a lot of spiritual healing and self worth meditations. I just wanted to say we are trying for another baby again 😊 thank you to all the women on here who shared how they were feeling it’s really saved my life! Sending everyone lots of love if you are struggling, and to know it’s okay to ask for help there really is no judgment and shame in it. You are worthy and are doing a fantastic job! Thank you 💖💖