I had a miscarriage March 4th. D&C the 11th. I was due October 19th, my late grandmothers birthday. It all seemed to perfect, I have 3 boys. So I was hoping this was my girl. I knew something was wrong from the getgo though, not sure how or why? I’m handling it pretty okay, I have my moments. When I went to my apt, after my D&C. I told him I wanted to try the patch for BC(I had to drop out of nursing school, due to the miscarriage. I missed ALOT) I am overweight, and I do worry about my weight with a new pregnancy more so than I have in the past. But when I got my miscarriage report, they put my weight was the reason why😭😭😭 I’ve been devastated, I hate my body always have. I hate myself, I hate everything. I just want my baby, I had a big announcement for Easter. And my period finally started today. It’s been hard(this weekend, especially) Idk if I should start the BC, work on my weight I thought of trying around July/august. Or if I should go ahead, and start tracking/trying working on my weight and if it happens, it happens 😖 it’s sooooo hard…….