Is there something wrong with me?? Anyone that knows psychology ?

Question

My life just feels so bleh. It absolutely sucks i feel this way. Short Summary I did have a difficult childhood, i got pregnant at 19, cheated on by his dad, and now im a coparenting mom at 22. I dont have my degree, cant find a decent paying/ reasonable job. I feel so lost. I have an amazingg boyfriend. I love him. I just dont know what to do in life. I feel anxious and stressed all the time. Ive been picking at my skin, i now have mini scabs on my arms, face, legs, back. I feel depressed and feel like theres no point in doing anything. I hate the way society works. I could go on and on
The shitty part is, just 2 weeks ago i felt peaceful, happy, and content. I felt like i was thriving, smiling and content and felt good anout everything for a few weeks. But i keep coming back to these lasting moments of “i dont care about anything” but i also care a lot about everything.
Does it sound like i have depression? Ive only been diagnosed with anxiety. Ive felt this way my entire life. I have long periods of numbness and then i have glimpses of pure happiness and joy where my life seems to be going nearly perfect. 
 For example, right now and for the last 2 days, i dont know what triggered it but i feel like a robot and i feel numb. Like im just going thru the motions and im not really living. I feel weird like im on autopilot. I think im going thru depersonalization or something. Ive had it before but not for long, it always goes away. I feel weird. 
Does anyone have any tips to live that happy life? How can i turn the switch?? 
I promise im not crazy or weird. I dont have any weird life expectations either. These are my inner thoughts and you probably couldnt tell looking at me or talking to me in public 😅 
i just need some help on how to feel happy again, and how to keep it that way

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I've felt the same way most of my life! My parents are bipolar,  an I know I have it, i just try to dance around it. An stay positive I have definitely had/have my days, weeks, sometimes even months of the same numbness living like a robot just going day to day. Best of luck im 28 an doing great, With no medication I've just learned to take it easy on the days I feel at my worst! An I always tell myself this shall pass too. Alot of people are great at masking their greatest pains. Get help if you feel you need it. Another idea I do is write poetry, some of your best work comes from the worst days!

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Go to a psychiatrist and get evaluated. My mom is a lot like this and she bipolar, just seems to be up and happy then a bad week will come and she struggles to find joy in life. You may really benefit from a medication to help with anxiety and depression. And therapy would be a great idea to talk through these feelings and get some tools to get you out of those bad feelings.

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I know how you feel. I’ve suggested from depression my whole life pretty much and this sounds like it. Talking to someone REALLY helps. If you have a family member or friend you could open up to that could be very helpful. Lots of areas have therapists available on sliding scales too, so you only pay what you can afford for a costs, sometimes even just $20. Or if you qualify for Medicaid (I would def try, you might meet the income requirements) you can usually get it paid for with that insurance. Meditation also really helped me. I use guided meditations in a free app called Insight Timer. Whatever it is, know that you’re not alone. I’ve been in your shoes and it’s so hard, but you can heal!

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It sounds like you’re struggling with some mental health issues like many people. It doesn’t sound severe but getting a good evaluation from a professional will be the place to start to address this. I’d get a psychiatric referral from my primary care physician. Don’t let him/her just put you on an antidepressant.  Patients that receive cognitive behavioral therapy (no drugs), have good outcomes and even better if they receive both. Good luck girl and I hope you feel better soon.

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Yes, depression. I have both. Zoloft helps a lot.

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Sounds like you suffer from some varying degree of bipolar disorder. Start there and do some research about it.

Is there something wrong with me?? Anyone that knows psychology ?

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