3 weeks ago today I delivered my sleeping daughter, Tori, at 22 weeks 6 days. She was my rainbow baby after suffering a miscarriage back in August. I was so nervous for this pregnancy because I had severe preeclampsia and delivered my first daughter in 2019 at 34 weeks, luckily she was born healthy. I was being watched closer this time by my OB and MFM but it still wasn’t enough and I developed severe preeclampsia again. My health was in jeopardy and there was no choice but to deliver. My heart aches and I miss my baby girl everyday. I feel so much guilt that my body failed her and like I’ll never be able to forgive myself. I just feel so miserable and even the smallest thing will send me into a crying fit and I just feel so empty.