I’ve been TTC for over a year now, and it’s not been an easy journey at all for me. Once I hit the 9 month mark with not even one positive test I started to panic and since then it’s just got worse…

The past few months I feel like life is laughing at me- mocking me - for not being able to conceive. Everywhere I go, there are pregnant women, friends announcing their pregnancies, friends giving birth - hell, it’s on every TV channel I turn to, every conversation I overhear! It’s literally at a point where it’s almost funny because it’s literally daily now. A friend of mine literally went from wanting a divorce to TTC. My best friend had a one night stand and got her pregnant (BFF is a guy). These two have been the most shocking and out of the blue for me because they went from supporting me through this to suddenly having babies themselves ! Every time I try to chill out and not think about the whole babies and TTC thing, it’s right in my face. I even took a new job lately and it was a maternity cover. I found myself in the office, in the middle of a work baby shower for the woman I’d literally just met. I wanted the ground to swallow me but instead I had to smile and laugh like the rest of them….

I’m ranting and getting this all off my chest. Because I just don’t feel I’ve got anyone left who isn’t having babies and no one that can relate.

Why can’t it happen for me?