Question

This is 3 days before my missed period I'm 41 years old last pregnancy ended up being a etopic pregnancy at 9 weeks and the one before that I miscarried at 7 weeks with surgery to go in clean out my ovaries I am so scared after all that happened . Scared cause my age and what's happened to me before my boyfriend is 40 and this will be his first child I have 2 children from previous but I am wanting this baby so bad but with what we have been through I hate to get our hopes up again as we did for the previous 2 anyone else go through something like this that can relieve stress that I shouldn't be stressing or any advice would be amazing thank you so much for reading this and commenting I appreciate it 🙏🥰❤️