I have two under two, now almost 3 and 1. Contemplating another child but not

sure I want to put my body through pregnancy again. I had to have a c section with T incision and must have c sections at 36 weeks, laboring is an option as my risk for rupture it very high. V back is not an option at all sadly.

But despite wanting another, I dread being sick. My first pregnancy was awful and went basically undiagnosed,. My second I demanded meds that worked. If we try for a third and are blessed enough I plan to seek care from a hg specialist. Looking back I was severely constipated through each pregnancy. Of course from the meds, lack of appetite and dehydration. My first we did dicelegis which didn’t work, well maybe, slightly but just made me literally hibernate for 9 months.. second

I did zofran.

I’m wondering if i seek care from a specialist would this make things easier on me? Not sure there is much to do besides zofran that did work for me. I so wish to have a unicorn pregnancy but just doubt that’s in the cards for me. It’s sad to dread wanting to do this to my body again.. but I do have the baby fever. Yet on the other hand I feel like I’ve finally pulled myself out of depression for the torture of both pregnancy’s. Then I even feel guilty because my hg isnt horrible like needing pic lines and iv hydration. I’ve toughed each pregnancy out but my husband feels guilty also for putting me through pregnancy even with a wanted third 😞😩