Chemical Pregnancy

I had a VFL on Monday morning and then a much darker line Tuesday morning. After a year of trying, and the start of a fertility work up, I was….ecstatic and in disbelief. Then Tuesday night my period came along with a wave of some of the deepest sorrow. I of course cancelled all of my future fertility appointments thinking I was finally out of this infertility hell-hole. So much grief. Grief that we are having to consider expensive intervention options, grief that my daughter may never have a sibling or the age gap is not what I was picturing, and just grief for having hope stolen so quickly. Tuesday was cruel day.