My period is due on Thursday and I’m right in the middle of what I call my “what if week”. The week leading up to my period is the week that I have the most hope. This week I will test every single day; because what if I just tested too early. I will probably test twice a day; because what if it’s positive in the evening but not the morning. I will look at the test in every direction and light; because what if it’s just a vvvvfl. I will look at a test or two even after I tossed them; because what if I didn’t give it enough time. I will test until the second I see blood; because what if I just implanted late. I will analyze everything my body feels; because what if the slight cramps mean something. This is the best and the worst week of the month; because what if I am pregnant? But also, what if I’m not?