Hey ladies..I need help please

Hey ladies..to make things short and sweet. I just had a baby 5 months ago and found out I was pregnant today. I've been crying and filled with emotions..my husband had a vasectomy 2 weeks ago so I think it happened before his procedure. I had a rough post partum. I developed pp hypertension and was hospitalized a week after delivery. The only reason I'm scared to go through this again is because of possible pp complications again. I'm terrified! I know I have Noone but myself to blame but I literally don't feel Ike I can have this baby. I'm in my 3rd semester of Nursing school as well...it's so much and I'm all over the place but I'm really leaning towards abortion...I already have days that I miss having one child ..I have a 5 year old and a 5 month old. My husband is military so he's in and out and it's just overall hard. I'm sorry..it's not much detail and I'm all over the place but I can't put words to how I feel right now...I'm just so scared of my health going down after the experience that I just had with my 5 month old. Idk what to do and I just need some advice