Saline sonogram results

I was devastated to know that the saline sonogram was just as painful as the hsg test but I had no idea and so I never took any pain medication prior and it was super painful all I did was cry again during the second procedure. They found what appears to be a polyp in my uterus but it doesn't contain a stock which majority of the polyps generally do and so they're unsure if it is that or if it is a blood clot that is in my uterus due to the embryos..

I am beyond devastated on what the next steps are as I probably will have to do a hysteroscopy which puts everything on hold at this present time.

Infertility has never striked me to be this depressing this painful this agonizing as it has been..

I haven't even dealt with my miscarriage let alone all these tests that they keep running on me...

I am at a loss for words for what I'm supposed to do with myself and my mind and my state of being..

All I do is cry