I know this might sound weird but I want to make this post not because I'm expecting to make myself feel any better just to see if any ladies are in the same boat.

So yesterday I was hopeful that my period wasn't going to come as me and my husband really tried to become pregnant however sure thing my period came flooding through. Usual I'm always upset naturally. But today all I want to do if cry and be on my own.

My husband says he cares but I'm not sure if he 100% understands. All he has wanted to do today is play a game looking at models on his phone and making me guess if he wants to have sex with him or not. And he's been watching porn for hours in front of me.

I have never felt so down ugly and self conscious about my self. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm good enough or if he no longer is sexualy attracted to me. As when we do have sex he always wants to watch porn after like I'm no longer good enough.

I feel so crap about my self and in pain as well. I dunno maybe it's just a bad day 😕