i was 13 at the time and there was this 16 year old boy,he’s 4 years older than me.he made me keep our relationship a secret from everyone even my own family and friends,we were on the couch and he kept saying how hot it would be to finger me,asked if he could multiple times and i would just say “i don’t know i don’t really want too” after him begging i just let him and it hurt bc i wasn’t turned on so i said ow and pulled his hand out of my pants,keep in mind i had never done anything sexual.when he went home and texted me lasted that night saying “that was not hot at all i’m never doing that again”i felt so disgusted in myself and cried for weeks after that.he manipulated me into doing more sexual stuff after as well but that has stuck with me after 2 years and i still feel disgusted after that.what should i do ?