8 months postpartum pregnancy test

I swear i see something but i am not ready i am really hoping its just indent line i have a 2 year old and a 8 month only we have been using condoms while my husband gets the courage to get a vasectomy since i dont have a good reaction to birth control am soo sad i love my kids with all my heart but dont want more kids i really dont i am a stay at home mom with basically no help i clean i wash i bath a change the kids my husband has never changed a diaper in his life only like 4 and just because it was when they where born and in the hospital am just hoping its just nothing because if it is i dont know what to do i wanted to go back to work once my son was off breastfeeding life has gotten a bit depressed with the same thing over and over every day