I just needed to come on here and let it out. No one has to read this I’m just broken right now. Back in March I knew something was up but went to the doctor and tested negative for pregnancy. I know my body and I should have listened. I had a “period” in April and then in may I had spotting for 3 weeks leading us to this past Friday. I tested for Covid on Wednesday because I wasn’t feeling well and tested positive. On Friday I had this cramping in my right side/back. I thought well maybe it’s the Covid or gas pain. Go to the hospital and found out I’m pregnant and it’s ectopic. I have the surgery and I haven’t even had a moment to process any of the information that’s been given to me. Then they give me the pictures and tell me that they had to take the right tube out. I am 24 years old. I took repro in college and I know me and my soon to be husband can still make it happen. Here’s the thing…. The whole point of this post. I don’t know how to mentally take this. Everyone keeps saying such typical things like “you’re young” “god has other plans for you” “it will happen when you’re ready”. They are trying to help and honestly we weren’t ready to be parents (mentally we are getting married in September and have a lot going on) but when we saw those pictures idk. My husband is in the coast guard and comes home on the second. He has FaceTimed me constantly and I absolutely love how much he just wants to be here. It’s just breaking my heart how he keeps trying to keep light and make jokes about being a dad. He’s talked about how in the future he can’t wait to take a family trip and show our kids his old home or how he is trying to make light and ask if he can get dad shoes. You know the white tennis shoes. It just it almost hurts more knowing even he would have been ready to start this family. Has anyone gone through this? How long till I will be myself again? Any advice on trying in the future? How do I comfort those around me when I’m trying to heal?