Baby #3

We are talking about ttc #3 soon, and having a third child feels right and I want another baby but the thought of having to be pregnant and give birth again just makes me stomach drop. I’m not a lover of being pregnant, birth sucks and postpartum healing again sounds awful!! I’m also terrified of having more anxiety and I have this irrational fear of hemorrhage or dying during birth.

Does anybody have any insight why I feel like this or how to overcome that awful feeling?

Does a “normal” pregnancy have those risks? Are they high?