Today I turn 36 years old. 6 days ago, I had a TFMR at 21W2D. My little baby boy Pablito (we found out his gender early and had a name picked for him) had a NTD encephalocele and other facial abnormalities that were not compatible with life. I'm grateful for another year of life. I'm so blessed to have a loving husband and a healthy 2 year old son. But my heart hurts. I miss my little angel so much. I wish I was celebrating my birthday with him still in me doing well.