Feeling down today

Just found out that one of my close friends is pregnant baby #2 and other two friends have given birth in the last two months.

I tried explaining to my husband but he doesn’t get it 😞 he said it is wrong to envy them and feel like this.

Now I feel even more alone because it is not like I want to feel like this.

I am happy for her but I want it to for me.

I want my time 😭