Hi All,

Sorry for the long post. Last week has been hell for me. I received the worst news My baby’s heartbeat stopped around 9 weeks. Today I was supposed to be 11 weeks 5 days. First it came as shock , then disappointment, anger, guilt. I feel like I am stuck in this vicious cycle. Not able to come out of it. I thought after I go through the process of miscarriage I will get some closure. Friday night I started bleeding and the whole process took around 5 hrs. I cried a lot but physically I was so weak couldn’t think of anything else. I felt my body went through hell too. But since today morning all thoughts are coming back. I keep thinking about 2 weeks back when everything was normal. At the start of this year I prayed god to give me a baby by end of this year. When my wish came true I was on cloud 9. I couldn’t believe Dec 27 was my due date. I thought it’s a miracle. But then this happened. I don’t know why god is playing with my emotions.

I conceived this baby through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. I am 34 year old have PCOS, my thyroid levels are slightly elevated so on thyroid medication too. I feel this is end of my dream for having babies. I see no hope. My husband is very supportive and he is been there for me all the time. Our family is not here but friends are helping us in anyway they can. I just don’t feel like talking to anyone. I think everyone is happy with their normal life. They won’t be able to understand as no one has gone through what I am going through right now.

Does this get better? I would really love to hear some positive stories. Any success stories with PCOS, Miscarriage?