I'm 21 ( F ). I'm struggling so badly. It's such a weird feeling. I feel happy but then when I sit with where I should be according to society, anxiety completely takes over my body. I instantly begin feeling like a failure and ask myself wtf am I doing?? But then at the same time, I focused on myself, my body, and hobbies that make me happy. I'm a poet and love photography. But then I feel like I should be doing more. And then I suddenly feel overwhelmed... but that's not the worst part.

The worst part is I'll have moments where I can't do simple tasks without it overwhelming me. Cleaning my room, showering, getting up out of bed, eating, going to the gym. I'll try to do it or I won't do it at all. I'm such a procrastinator. I wait til the very last minute to do things. It could even be 1 hour before. I have sleepless nights or I sleep very late at night.

I'm sick of myself. I hate this person I am. Not all the way but just these little things I KNOW I can't change about myself but it's like it's always been in me. What could be wrong with me?

I never can complete anything. 😒 I'm sick of myself.