What would you do ?

Ok ladies I apologize ahead of time for this being so long. I feel so stupid and I just want to know what I should do. Please no bashing please. So My husband and I have been together for 11 years. We have 4 absolutely amazing children. We met when we were young and got pregnant within the first 6 weeks of us dating. While I was pregnant with our fist child my mom unfortunately passed away. From that point I have solely relied on him and his family emotionally. I have always worked I had a job for the first year of our relationship then switched to another for 7 years and now I’m at a new one for going on a year. My husband is very emotionally abusive and so is his family but I literally have no one else. No family my mom is gone and I don’t have a father so I put up with it all because I have no options. He completely dismissed me and my feelings at times. These past 3 years have been the worst yet. With the pandemic he goes in and out of jobs. In 2020 he had 9 he didn’t work in 2021 at all which left me with all the bills I was literally drowning I begged him to get a job finally in Feb 22 he did but recently quit that job about a week ago. I work from 9-6 I still get up to take care of the kids before work while he sleeps today he didn’t get out of bed until 3pm. I have to work overtime so we can have enough money to buy school clothes and shoes for 3 kids and he is sleeping like nothing is wrong. Right now he is out drinking leaving me again with all 4 kids. I feel so stupid I don’t know what to do. He says riding around the city helps him feel better about himself. But he is riding around in our only car drinking. I’m so afraid to leave him because I know his family will fight me but I’m also tired.