I just found out that I am pregnant. I have two and just took in my pre-disabled mother,and got accepted into the nursing school Program that I have been trying to. My head and reality can’t have another one as I have two (4&1).. and I have been gestational diabetic with all the babies where by I had so many appointments. I booked an appointment for abortion, but as the day approaches.. I have been feeling so guilty especially after my 4yr d who has been asking for a sister! And she sometimes says her baby sister is in mama’s tummy and she is coming out. Then she wakes up crying that I’m not gonna give her a little sister! Creeps me out!! Nobody knows not even hubby ! Only been venting here. I’m in dilemma as I feel so guilt. I’m close to 5weeks may be! But I feel like I’m killing a human or just denying someone life but we are in a position that I we can’t afford! I’m so confused I get sick thinking about it! My head is okay my heart hurts! Oh man! Help!