Second Child Advice/Reassurance

I apologize in advance if this is long winded, but I’m kind of having an spinning out anxious type day already and hoping you guys can help give insight 😅

Long term my fiancé and I both have always wanted 2 kids, but honestly neither of us shine as infant parents. We definitely love the toddler stages more (honestly even after 6 months is better) so we’re super nervous to have a second child. Also it’s the anxiety of adding to the family changing the routine up, it’s just all so stressful. I feel like I don’t remember any of my sons baby time either thanks to covid happening and kind of just going on autopilot (which covid and the state of the US also makes me nervous).

I got my IUD out 3 weeks ago and we’re waiting a few months so I can get a period and get my body a little bit regulated and I’m making the preparations for us to possibly get pregnant but it’s still doesn’t feel real and I feel like I panic and go back and forth between being 100% about a second kid and then being absolutely terrified and unsure.

Anyone in the same boat? Or felt the same way and then had their second and have any wisdom to share?