If ever for a moment, I thought after this pregnancy we would have more children--I officially am over that idea! We have 4 kids under 4 and currently pregnant with twins. I have become gravely ill with this pregnancy and am now having to spend some time in the hospital (which means I am also away from my kids 💔). I have been diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum. I have never had this chronic morning sickness before. Although, I definitely suffered from morning sickness damn near the entire pregnancy with all of my pregnancies, but this time it is 100 times worse!!! It is soo bad that I do not wish this on anyone!!! I am only 7 weeks pregnant and the doctor is telling me this can last until I am at least 18 weeks. And the thought of having to deal with this 11 more weeks has me crying endlessly. I am crying more than a baby because this is just too much. The vomiting is so harsh and forceful and extreme; I have lost 12 pounds in a matter of days (less than a week). My eyes are bloody red because vessels have popped in my eyes from all the vomiting and also blood vessels have popped all over my face and neck and I have red bumps covering my face and neck and it is all from throwing up ao violently all day and night. The doctors are giving me so many different medications through the IV and I am so afraid this is going to affect me breastfeeding; thank God I have so much milk at home frozen for my 4 kids but I also think about future feedings and pumping. The doctor does not anticipate that I will need to be in the hospital for the next 11 weeks BUT he cannot say for certain, it will all depend on several factors and test results. I have never felt more overwhelmed in my life!!!! Even as I talk to my phone so it can type for me, I find myself having to pause just to cry. I am crying ALL THE TIME. I absolutely HATE pregnancy! I always have! And I never had not one easy pregnancy; never! And I am so ready to have my twins and have my tubes cut off immediately so I cannot have anymore. I envy every woman that just glides through her pregnancy, as if life is calm and peachy, because that has never been the case for me. I need prayers. I need encouraging words. I need to read similar stories of experiences and what was done. My partner is trying his very best to do every single thing possible to help me and console me but I am just soo miserable from how sick I am. For those who do not know, hyperemesis gravidarum is extreme, persistent nausea and vomiting during pregnancy. It can lead to dehydration, weight loss, and electrolyte imbalances. Women with hyperemesis gravidarum have extreme nausea and vomiting during pregnancy. It can cause a weight loss of more than 5% of body weight. The condition can happen in any pregnancy, but is a little more likely if you are pregnant with twins (or more babies). But I don't understand as my last pregnancy was with twins and I didn't experience this. And if you have read through my other posts on my profile, you will notice I have never mentioned anything being this critical during my pregnancies. I have never wanted a pregnancy to get to the finish line so desperately!!! I keep telling myself I got this but I feel so defeated!!! And I am missing my children, terribly!!! 😔🥺😭😫