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Tasha

Hello everyone! My name is Tasha and I'm 35 years old. I have 3 children ages 16, 14 and 7 from a previous marriage and my SO has 2 ages 6 and 5 from his previous marriage. Just found out last week that I am expecting again (6w3d today) after finding out last year that our chances of conceiving got considerable lower when they found a fibroid tumor in my uterus last April 2021. Fast forward to February 2022. I finally got over the fact that my SO and I won't be able to share a baby together and I called my ob and scheduled my hysterectomy for the end of August. As I have had 3 miscarriages in the past, I'm super worried and still not completely ok with the fact that I am pregnant, since I finally was able to bring myself to schedule my hysterectomy. Add in all the stress I've been going through (I lost my job 2 days before I found out, all 5 kids home for the summer, trying and failing to work from home) and I have been slightly cramping with very faint brown discharge that you can barely see when I wipe, and that I had to cold turkey most of my Fibromyalgia and Anxiety medicine, I'm stressing hard core. Tell me I'm not crazy? Throw some advice my way, please?