I have a 5 year old daughter. My husband and I have been trying for baby #2 for about 2 years now. I found out super early, like 3w4d early. I’m currently 5w1d…I think. I don’t have my first ultrasound and first round of blood work until July 28th but I won’t find anything out until August 9th (which happens to be my daughters birthday). The diagnostic imagining department at my hospital doesn’t even let you see the screen when you get your ultrasounds done, so I won’t hear the heartbeat or see if the baby is even in my uterus as opposed to my Fallopian tube. I’ve taken a digital test every week since I found out and have watched it go from 1-2 weeks to 3+ weeks, and that hasn’t calmed my anxiety.

I cannot stop stressing and googling, which I know I shouldn’t do. I google every single symptom. I google every single time a symptom goes away for a bit. I open my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">pregnancy apps</a> constantly. I check the odds of me miscarrying every morning as soon as I wake up. I ugly cried to my husband today about how I’m scared something will go wrong and we won’t know anything until the 9th. I don’t know how to calm down about it all.

I feel silly because I don’t remember stressing like this when I was pregnant with my daughter, but I can’t help it. If you are also feeling this way, just know you’re not alone.