When I found out I was pregnant, I was over the moon. I’ve known I’ve wanted kids for a long time. My partner and I were so excited when we went for our ultrasound. Rushing up the steps, full bladder, heart skipping a beat.

I knew the moment I saw the first picture that something was wrong. No growth. That flickering heartbeat was gone. Feeling like a failure, my partner helped me put my clothes on slowly as I tried not to sob too loudly.

Reviewing our options, I had decided to go with a manual vacuum aspiration as my body didn’t want to let go of my little bean. My appointment is tomorrow, I spoke to the nurse about how it all goes down. I’m just so nervous. Has anyone had this procedure before? I don’t know what to expect, does anyone have any advice for aftercare or anything like that?