I’m sorry I just feel like I need to vent to people who don’t know me.

To make this extremely long story short, my husband had a bone marrow transplant almost 2 years ago and currently his semen analysis is showing he has no swimmers. I have a history of endometriosis and needed Clomid to conceive my first, my second was natural but I miscarried. We had no chance to save his sperm before he started his chemo.

Anyway he saw a urologist who said he could do a surgical procedure to open up the testes to see if there are any sperm ‘hiding’ in the back. He said it could happen. Maybe a 50/50 chance. He would have to go under general anesthesia and he’s nervous bc he has bad heart and lungs and needs cardiac clearance. He had previously gone under general for his gallbladder and he was fine. If they find something, I would HAVE TO have <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>.

Our only other option to get pregnant is a sperm donation with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. I just don’t know how I feel about it. I look at my daughter and she is him. She looks like him and acts like him and is totally attached to him. A donor never would. I really want him to try the surgical procedure if there’s any chance of finding anything, even though I wouldn’t go through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> by choice. I know the finances, risks, etc and my insurance doesn’t cover it. I’m so torn. I really want to get pregnant and give my daughter a sibling. I’m already 40, my daughter is 6.

Thank you for reading If you’ve gotten this far 😊