3 months in a row 😩

Clo

So the past 2 months I thought I saw a faint line on one pregnancy test but then af arrived the following day. This month I had a faint line on multiple tests took an early clearblue digital which came back pregnant and then I started spotting which then got heavier over the past 2 days. I’m gutted I have been ttc for 8 months which isn’t long I know but I’m devastated seeing the words pregnant has just made this month harder. Has anyone else gone through this month after month?