Today we’ve hit 18 + 3. A milestone I never thought we would reach. I’m a mama of 4 (praying it will be 5). Each pregnancy has come with its own set of challenges. The fact that I can even say I have four healthy thriving little humans getting under my feet is a miracle to say the least.

I feel silly for thinking this would be a healthy pregnancy this time round. It really was wishful thinking. At our 12 week ultrasound we were told baby has a 2 vessel cord. There is usually 3.

This can either be a 1 off anomaly and everything else but the cord is fine and baby might be born a little smaller. Or it could be a marker to bigger congenital issues with the heart, kidney, digestive system, spine etc.

The doctor said she couldn’t tell us more until our 19 week morphology scan where they can properly assess the heart, kidneys and other organs. A Single umbilical artery can also cause limbs to not grow correctly. They said if there is any other anomalies other than the cord we will be sent for further testing and, counselling. We were told if there was a major defect we would have the option to terminate 😢 which of course is being induced, going through labour and not bringing my baby home.

I am freaking out! I have been freaking out for the last 6 weeks!! Next weeks scan cannot come quick enough. I’m trying to stay positive and praying the 2 vessel cord is isolated and baby + organs + limbs are all growing correctly. I’ve been watching everyone with their gender reveals, pregnancy announcements, bump photos, baby shopping and I feel like I can’t be excited, I can’t tell everyone we’re pregnant or that we are having a girl/boy because I’m so so so so terrified I’m not bringing my baby home. 😢😢 I’m praying everything is going to be ok.