I don’t know what it feels like to be loved

I am 28. I have dated around and been with many people. I am now married and a mother. I thought my husband loved me but I’ve found many reasons to find out he does not love me. Or he did before and not anymore. We are still living together due to situational reasons but we are no longer together or sleeping together, and planning a divorce soon, but I am just curious as to what does it feel like to be loved by a significant other. I see my friends and plenty of other women on social media posting their perfect and beautiful loving lives with their husband and kids, and enjoy the simple qualities of life. I never had that and I don’t know if I ever will. I am almost afraid that I am not love material even though I do love others and give my all, but never get the love back.