I need help ladies, I feel like I need to cheat

Husband and I been married for almost 9years. We had our first baby last year and now 8months. Since I give birth, he is no longer spontaneous which has been an issue before. I wanna have sex whenever. Either middle of work, after work etc. i feel like my life right now is like the movie “Sex Life” on netflix, where I am just a “mom and don’t work”.

My connection with my husband went down after my MIL helped us after giving birth. She is not a help and I can keep repeating that forever. I was that traumatized. My husband works from home. I felt like he always assume I am okay since I don’t ask him for help. I used to asked him for help but I felt like I have to pay for it at the end of the day. He has always been like that after I gave birth. We went through counseling and it did not help either. The fact that it is so expensive and only the surface is being discussed. I’m tired of him. Lately, I’ve been so horny. I never felt wanted by him after my child. I always need to initiate and something inside me gets hurt every time I do this.

So I asked him the other day if I can have him. I start touching and initiate again and he start kissing me back and he stopped and start telling me about his work. My mood so instantly disappeared. I put my son down so we can have a moment that we barely had.

Anyway, long story short. Lately I feel like cheating. Finding a man that will fulfill my needs without even thinking. Even how much I explained myself he keeps dismissing me without him knowing it. I started playing by myself to satisfied my pleasure but it hurts me at the same time that I have a husband to share it with but nowhere to be found. I just wanna be love again. I felt like I am no longer emotionally and mentally safe in my marriage. Thoughts and advise is highly appreciated.

We argue last night and I told him I will never ever going to beg for sex. Specially if you know that this is your obligation to me as your Wife.

I could be wrong by saying this to him. But my feelings was hurt. He seemed to not know when to read my love language.

He is a workaholic by the way. Works 7days a week by choice. Managing 20 properties and building a new company. He thinks that by him driving me to the grocery (which I love) for him it’s already an accomplishment of the day and already made me happy which is not.

I’m just so sad and my parenting to my son is being affected.